Anthony Adrian Acker
5 - 07 - 2024
Spring term has been busy!
I received three awards from the Oregon Newspaper Publishing Association for my writing with The Advocate News. I won 2nd place for Best Writing, 3rd Place for Best Columnist, and 3rd Place for Best Spot News Story. I'm super proud of myself for what I have been able to achieve. It has been an endless struggle to get to where I am now but it has always been worth every moment of pain.
Classes are going really well this term and I am feeling really healthy and strong. I've been reading a lot more lately, recently finishing Be Useful by Arnold Schwarzenegger (which I published a review of), and Blindsight by Peter Watts, and I started Aristotle's Nicomachean Ethics.
This term we are focused on location and outdoor lighting technique and are spending a lot of time outside our comfort zones.
I have also continued my journey into DCS World flight simulator and I have been playing online, finding my flight sim communities, and I am eagerly awaiting the release of the F-4 Phantom which should prove to be an exciting and challenging plane to learn and fly.
Here are some photos from this Sping term!
And here are some photos from Winter term!
04 - 04 - 2024
Spring Term just started!
1 - 08 - 2024
Today is the first day of Winter Term. It's been a pretty good day but it's been a lot to take in and I am ready to just be alone, take the masks off, and enjoy some quiet.
Over break I spent much of my time learning DCS Combat Flight Simulator, playing Battlebit Remastered, and uploading to my site. It was a great break but I am really happy to be back to class.
I hope everyone had a great holiday and got something nice from someone they care about. My besty Bri got me the perfect gifts.
Fall Term Finals
Fall term is just about over! And I am finally done with my final assignment. I chose to make ten photographs of nice looking knive presentations.
Thanks for checking it out!
11 - 25 - 2023
Took my airsoft kit out for some time in the forest.
11 - 23 - 23
Happy Thanksgiving everyone. I'm thankful and grateful to have my friends, my health, and some stability. I hope everyone has a good day with their families.
I acknowledge that Thanksgiving has a tainted history and is based in lies, war, and theft, however it's still perfectly fine excuse to share and show gratitude. I am privileged and grateful to be an American.
In 1621 the first Thanksgiving was actually held on February 21, when a ship loaded with food from Dublin, Ireland landed at Plymouth Rock, saving the starving townsfolk during a nasty winter. It is not a story of heroic Christians sharing what they had with the poor and hungry Natives. Chief Massasoit and The Wampanoag tribe were in fact not poor and were sustaining the new comers, and teaching them to grow new foods, until they were saved by the daughter of a Dublin merchant who chartered the vessel to Plymouth Rock. My family came from Ireland, during social upheaval, plight, and famine as immigrants.
11 - 17 - 23
Winter term is nearly over already; my final projects are starting and thanksgiving break is next week. This term absolutely flew by for me. I have been so busy writing articles for the school paper, making photos for my class, spending time in the forest, and playing airsoft, that I haven't had a lot of time for much else. It's been kinda nice, albeit kinda lonesome.
11 - 3 - 23
10 - 31 - 23
Happy Halloween!
10 - 20 - 2023
I have now had 3 articles published in my school newspaper. 8 photos of mine in total have been published as well. That's pretty awesome.
This coming issues at school has a piece where I ask the mayoral candidates of Portland Oregon what they will be doing to help the homelessness crisis within our communities and how they plan to heal the city. Durrell Kinsey Bey got back to me first, and Mingus Mapps is in correspondence with me now as well, so I will be writing a continuation piece. Pretty exciting stuff.
It feels like I may finally be able to achieve something good for the community.
10 - 17 - 2023
I wake up some mornings so emotionally exhausted form putting so much effort into my work and my focus, and all the crap from the day prior will finally hit me. There's always something new to chew on and swallow. Some rancid truth emerges from the shadows, or some awful new stress.
9 - 23 - 2023
My friend Bri and I went to see Calabrese, Haunt Me, and Dead Animal Assembly Plant a couple nights ago on the 21st of Semptember. It was a wonderful experience to finally see Calabrese in the flesh! I have photographs and a review of the show here.
I will upload Dead Animal Assembly Plant photos and the final paragraphs of my review tomorrow.
9 - 15 - 2023
My friend Bri found this cool Mantis outside in our plants. By the time I got there with my camera she was scurrying away back to her flying saucer. Her mission to observe was over, it was time to relay the new information back to Mars HQ.
The humans are retarded.
9 - 3 - 2023
There was a lunar event recently that gripped the nations social media platforms. BEWARE THE MOON.
Summer term is over. Thank fucking goodness. No more sociology bullshit for a while. It's wonderful to learn from our mistakes with no agency or control over how to change it.
I am sick of this bullshit boring world. Social media is the devil we all beg existence of... Smartphones are the real cancer.
Community standards rules are ruining Youtube, Instagram, and Facebook. There is so hope for free speech and conversation. It's all memes and trite detritus.
The nation is unraveling and I am watching it all burn laughing. It's all so predictable.
It's all so fucking lame. Hunter S Thompson would be so bored.
I wish I could find people on the level.
8 - 26 - 2023
I don't know where to go from here.
I feel lost adrift a sea of ignorant naivety once more.
Lost sight of everything I had hoped for,
drowning and starving, I will die upon these waves
a million times before I find my paradise.
7 - 23 - 2023
Spending time with my bestfriend Bri in the forest with my rifle, pistol, and drone. We had a great day.
Cancerslug's new album is out!
New Cancerslug is a work of art; it's a brilliant and magnificently crafted singular vision of symphonic enlightenment. You should send all your money, all your parents money, your children's allowances and piggy banks, and your entire life savings, to Alex Story. For he will put it to far better use than you ever will, or your dumbass kids. Afterward you can go fucking die on a battlefield or in a gasoline fire.
7 - 04 - 2023
Happy Independence Day America! Fuck those redcoats and their damn taxes!
7 - 02 - 2023
Nick Cave and Debbie Harry did a song together ❤️
6 - 29 - 2023
My friend Bri and I went on a hike the other day up by Wildcat Mt.
We brought my DJI air2s drone with us on our trek so I made a little film out of some of the video I shot that day. We also got a lot of really cool photos of each other.
6 - 26 -2023
Summer classes start tomorrow! Woot!
6 - 22 - 2023
When I dream of a home, it's always the house I grew up in in Long Beach California.
Whenever I dreamt of home, it was under an emerald sky.
I could never understand why.
More often than not, I run up to and through the backyard gate.
I am usually chasing someone or running away from something.
It took me no effort at all to scale that fence as a kid.
Splinters and torn up hands be damned.
It was four years ago yesterday that I was last in that house. No wonder I had that dream last night. But what did it mean?
Check out my forums! I have a bunch of boards open. You can set up an account really easily, and even use an anonymous handle, just like the old days. Let's bring the conversation back to the forums, and away from the corporate thieves at Meta and Twitter.
6 - 19 - 2023
Black Lives Matter - Juneteenth 2023
"The big problem is that people don't believe a revolution is possible, and it is not possible precisely because they do not believe it is possible. " Ted Kaczynski
I know that I will always be able to look back at 2020 and say that I stood up against Police brutality and violence perpetrated towards American citizens. Police used pepper spray, tear gas, rubber balls and grenades, wooden clubs, and their hands to enact physical violence against peaceful nonviolent protestors. I had the opportunity to experience the searing hot pain of Police violence first hand and I grasped onto it harder than any of those fat pig cops could grip me. I felt prouder to be an American on that night than any previous in my entire life. America was built on revolution and rebellion against tyranny and injustice. The American Police force was built on the backs of Black Americans, and they have no place in this world.
I eventually stopped attending and photographing the protests because of Trumps deployment of his BORTAC agents to guard and protect the Portland Justice Center. These wannabe SS Officers wore multicam plate-carrier kits and suppressed M4s as if they were about to deploy into Afghanistan to fight those freedom hating Taliban. Agents were also driving around Portland and kidnapping known activists t interrogate and gather intelligence on them. Portland Police or the US Government were also deploying reconnaissance planes to circle over Portland for months gathering cellular data over Stingray units.
Police reform has been successfully accomplished in the United States of America. In Camden New Jersey a town completely abolished and reformed their Police force, and the community is thriving. Check out my links for an article about this specific Police force.
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/jul/27/trump-border-patrol-troops-portland-bortac
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/jul/27/trump-border-patrol-troops-portland-bortac
https://www.tapinto.net/towns/camden/articles/camden-police-reform-is-a-model-for-other-cities
6 - 18 - 2023
Theodore Kaczynski died in prison on June 10th 2023
His message will not be soon forgotten. Industrial society is unsustainable. Neurodivergence is not a disease to be eradicated. And technology is being used to suppress the advancement of a healthy society. We must act. Our planet, a living work of art, needs our support and protection.
5 - 29 - 2023
Spring term at Mt. Hood Community College is already almost over! Holy fucking hell it went by fast! Our garden and house plants are growing so well! And I have felt so great being able to ride my bike and sit outside in the sun almost every day. I need to consider moving somewhere that offers sun and warmth on a more regular basis.
4 - 20 - 2023
Just an old photo I took a year or so ago, while I was driving into Portland.
3 - 28 - 2023
Winter term is over and I did really well. I am so proud of myself for finally finding my way back to college. It took a while, but it was worth it.
2 - 27 - 2023
Balloons, UFOs, derailments, chemical and uranium fires, and then the sky took a huge white dump all over America. It's been a really hard weekend. My ADHD has been really bad. I was super restless already because of the snow. But then my ex cancelled our joint cell phone plan so my cell service was cut. Without internet or phone I haven't been able to research for my homework. What a fucking week. I am fucking over it.
Here's some images I've made through photographing my old CRT monitor displaying a self portrait, Theodore Kaczynski, and the AI Colonel from MGS2 that I made in photoshop. This is an aesthetic I would like to continue working on. They need to be viewed full size to really appreciate them.
2 - 13 - 23
In the whistling winds I can still hear your laughter
My tears remind me of the taste of the salty morning air
That billowed the curtains so gently
And in that misty morning
Our souls drifted out to sea
And never returned
2 - 1 - 2013
It was my birthday. I didn't make a big deal out of it. I have had mixed experiences celebrating my birthday. Memories of my mother forgetting, friends forgetting or being too busy, and never having the means to celebrate like most people do, have kept me from planning big get togethers or going out. Thankfully my friend Bri was amazing and took me out to dinner for sushi. It was amazing and I got totally stuffed. My friend Brandy had me a couple nice and thoughtful gifts from her trip to see her mom. And overall it was very peaceful.
1 - 1 - 2023
I spent 2018 healing from the effects of 2017.
I spent 2019 healing from the effects of 2018.
I spent 2020 healing from the effects of 2019.
I spent 2021 healing from the effects of 2020.
I spent 2022 healing from the effects of 2021.
Perhaps 2023 will be the year I heal and move on to a better future.
Update in 2024: I made it through a year of school. Great job Tony.
12 - 20 - 2022
How a city can carry so much ugliness.
Breathing air thick of piss and putrid meat.
Walking over trash piled up under our feet.
Listening to mean things yelled from across a busy street.
Watching a motherly Heron fall from the sky.
Imagining such terrible sights so way up high.
I'm thinking she must have wanted to die.
How can a city carry so much ugliness?
12/19/2022
Omfg thanks to the flu virus I was taken out of commission for a few days. But I'm back at it. Getting things squared away for school most importantly.
12 - 13 - 2022
I was finally able to re-enroll in college! I had to drop out in 2010 when I had to leave my home during a dangerous and traumatic situation. It's been a huge struggle to get back in school, but I finally did it!
Here's an old shoot with a girl named Taylor I was shanging out with a few years back. I had just come home from my trip to Hollywood Calirfornia to shoot Cancerslug at the Whiskey A Go Go on June 20th 2019.
12/9/2022
My car has been out of service over the past couple weeks. I have been low on work and really scrammbling to get my car fixed. I ordered a radiator and it came yesterday. Hoping to get it in my little Civic tomorrow morning. I need to make some money in the next couple days some how to get insurance in my car. I don't know what I'm going to do but I'm doing my best.
Living with ADHD is so tough. Every day is effected by this cognitive disorder. Every aspect of my life is impacted by it. It's so difficult to explain myself, and get people to even believe I have anything wrong with me. I'm tired.
12/8/2022
Here's my new website! It'll grow so stay tuned to see how I change things up and see what I'm into. Maybe I'll blog some stuff or something.
I'm currently working on getting registered for college classes again. I had to drop out in 2010 when there was a violent situation with my family and I, and I was forced to become homeless for a while. It's been one of my biggest goals to go back to school and continue my education. So I am super proud of that. I am also proud of myself for advocating for my disabilities, and continuing to learn about and manage my ADHD.
Also working on looking for work, and finding new opportunities for advancement in my creative aspirations.
Be sure to check out my Youtube and Instagram! I have some really old projects on my YT page as well as new stuff!
I appreciate you
Thank you for enjoying my photography